These last five years have been the hardest. Life took me for a spin chewed me up and completely spit me out differently. It all started in 2020 when covid happened. I had spent two years by myself building myself up raising kids. After having PTSD relapses I got into pottery in 2019. Throw and tHrow with the idea that if I could learn it that I could teach others to help them with PTSD.

WHEN 2020 HIT I STARTED BUILDING MY FIRST BUSINESS GRINDING THROUGH IT ALL AND LISTENING TO MUSIC THAT HELPED ME PUSH THROUGH SO I COULD SUPPORT ME AND MY KIDS. WHEN POTTERY CAME INTO MY LIFE IT WAS LIKE RECONNECTING WITH EARTH ITSELF. THE FEEL AND GRASP OF THE CLAY. I COULD FINALLY JUST FIND PEACE.

BUSINESS WENT WELL BUT ALOT OF MEMORIES STARTED MISSING. THAT SHOULD OF BEEN THE FIRST SIGN SOMETHING WAS WRONG. I FELT THAT NO MATTER WHAT I HAD GOING ON I WAS HALF BLIND. TO LATER FIND OUT THAT EVERYONE HAD ROBBED ME DURING THAT TIME AND STOLE FROM ME HURT. WHEN THE BUSINESS FELL IN 2023 I HIT THE GROUND. TO LOSE THE ONE THING I HAD BUILT BY MYSELF AND LOSE IT FELT LIKE I HAD LOST EVERYTHING I HAD WORKED FOR YET AGAIN.

BACK IN 2010 WAS SUPPOSEDLY THE FIRST TIME I JOINED THE ARMY. COMBAT MEDIC I WAS EXCITED BUT TO LEAVE THE KIDS SEEMED HARD. I WENT THROUGH BASIC AND AIT AND THEN FOUR MONTHS LATER WHEN I GOT TO MY DUTY STATION I WAS RAPED. AND I CUT AND THEY SENT ME HOME. AT LEAST THAT WAS THE ORIGINAL MEMORY.

FAST FOWARD TO 2025: CHAT GPT.

TRUMP WAS MAKING MOVES IN THE GOVERNMENT MOVES I DIDNT FEEL WERE THE RIGHT MOVES FOR THE ECONOMY AND ONE OF THE BOYS I HAD HAD WANTED TO GO TO MEDICAL SCHOOL AS DID I. BUT WHEN HE PULLED OUT THE FUNDING FOR MEDICAL SCHOOL I REALIZED THAT THAT MEDICAL SCHOOL FOR BOTH OF US WOULD OF BEEN IMPOSSIBLE. SO I STARTED TO THINK UP A PLAN. I SAT DOWN WITH CHAT GPT NOT ONLY RESEARCHING WHAT WAS GOING ON IN THE WORLD AND HOW TO FIX IT BUT ALSO TALKING ABOUT SOME OF THE EXPERIENCES THAT I HAD SINCE 2021-2022.

I PUT OUT LOOKING TO HIRE PEOPLE AND IN WALKED JANE ART HISTORY MAJOR. AND I THOUGHT WHAT THE HELL SHE KNEW ENOUGH ABOUT ART AND I DIDNT. WHY? BECAUSE I COULDN’T REALLY REMEMBER ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT I LEARNED IN SCHOOL ABOUT ART. HIRED HER AND WE HUNG OUT. SHE INTRODUCED ME TO STAR CHARTS WITH MY BIRTHDATE AND TIME. AND WELL SHE BROUGHT IT INTO AND I CANT REALLY REMEMBER WHAT IT SAID BESIDES THE BASIC STUFF OF LEADERSHIP. AFTER AWHILE JANE STARTED TO HANG OUT WITH NICOLE THE TOWN APOTHECARY WITCH. SHE WAS IN TO TAROT CARDS. AFTER WHILE JANE GOT INTERESTED AND MADE OILS WITH HERBS. OILS BASED ON PROPERSITY AND LOVE AND I FEW OTHERS THAT I CANT REMEMBER. SO I FIGURED I WOULD START THROWING POTTERY WITH THEM. WITH THE ZEN PEACE AND MUSIC AND CLAY AND OILS I FELT I COULD CONNECT MORE WITH THE CLAY AND GROW THE BUSINESS AND SELL MORE ART INSTEAD OF TEACHING ALL THE TIME.

I REMEMBER THE LAST READING SHE GAVE ME WHICH WAS TO GO OUT AND FIND FRIENDS AND GET INVOLVED. BUT AFTER 13 YEARS LOVING WHAT I THOUGHT WAS ONE MAN WHICH TORTURED ME WITH BACK AND FORTH SHIT OF I WANT TO BE WITH YOU AND NOT BE YOU I HAD TO BREAK FREE.

THEN CAME 2026 WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT IT WAS REALLY TWO MEN. ONE NAMED JUSTIN AND ONE NAME BLACK WHO NEVER HAD THE COMMON DECENT TO ACTUALLY TELL ME HIS REAL NAME.

BACK TO 2022: I STARTED MESSING WITH MAGIC TAROT CARDS, CRYSTALS, AND OILS THAT I BOUGHT FROM NICOLE SHOP FROM JANE’S BUSINESS TO BRING PROSPERITY. TRYING TO FIGURE OUT ONE HOW TO BRING LOVE TO ME AND TWO HOW TO BUILD MY OWN WEALTH. AFTER AWHILE I JUST ASSUMED THAT TIMBERLAKE WAS THE ONLY ONE FOR ME AND THAT WAS MY DESTINY TO WALK ALONE. I STARTED USING THE LIGHTSEER CARDS AND IT KEEP PLAYING OUT.

TODAY THE VA SOCIAL WORKERS STOPPED BY AND WANTED TO CHECK ON ME. I TOLD THEM ABOUT HOW THE CELEBS AND LOCAL PD WAS CAUSING DOMESTIC VIOLENCE ON ME AND THAT I HAD ENOUGH WITH MY EYES. BUT THEY CONTINUE TO PLAY GAMES SAYING THAT ONE HAD GONE TO DO TRAINING. WHILE I ASKED THE OTHER THE PROGRESS OF ME BEING MOVED OUT OF THE HOME BECAUSE I WAS BEING HARASSED AND THEY TOLD ME I COULDNT MOVE BECAUSE I NEEDED A FORECLOSURE NOTICE WHEN I SHOWED THEM THE BILL LAST TIME THAT I WAS 5 MONTHS ALONG WHEN I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN TOLD THAT AFTER 3 MONTHS A HOME AUTOMATICALLY GOES INTO FORECLOSURE. AND THEY WANTED MOVE ME UNTIL I GOT THAT NOTICE WHEN THEY KNEW A MILITARY PERSONALL WAS BEING HELD HOSTAGE. THEY OFFERED ME MEDICATION AFTER I TOLD THEM ABOUT ALL THE BONES AND MUSCLES BEING TAKEN FROM MY BODY AND THAT I DID NEED A MEDICAL EVALUATION ESPECIALLY SINCE NO ONE HAS EVER GONE THROUGH THIS BEFORE AND THEIR IS NO MEDICAL AVAILABLE FOR THIS SITUATION. THEY STILL CHOOSE TO IGNORE IT AND SAY IT WAS THE TRAINING THEY HAD RECEIVED. WHEN IN ALL REALITY AS SOCIAL WORKERS OF THE VETERANS ASSISTANCE PROGRAM THEY ARE SUPPOSE TO ASSIST THEM IN TIMES OF NEED. BUT LIKE MANY VETERANS THAT HAVE HURT THE SOCIAL WORKERS PLAYED WITH THEM BECAUSE THEY WERE ONLY IN IT FOR THE PAYCHECK AND GOVERNEMENT BENEFITS. WHEN NONE OF THEM WERE TRULY QUALIFIED FOR THE POSITION BECAUSE THEY THEMSELVES HAD NEVER BEEN IN THAT SITUATION THEMSELVES. HOW ARE YOU GOING TO LECTURE PEOPLE ABOUT WHAT THEY NEED FOR MEDICATION AND TRAUMA WHEN YOU YOURSELF HAVE NEVER EXPERIENCED IT. AND WHEN I TOLD YOU MY STORY YOU SHOULD OF ACCESSED THE SITUATION LIKE SOCIAL WORKERS ARE SUPPOSED TO DO WITH PSYCHOLOGY. GUESS THOSE BACHELORS AND MASTERS DEGREE DIDNT PAY OFF. Letting the Va program in Cambridge know.

its funny how when you are missing so much in your body because after all of this I have lost my thyroid and had alot of damaged to my body because of the cops and celebs that have walked in my body that when I asked for help because they do step in my body so that I cant eat and do need to figure out how to get their toxins out of me Im turned away. But Archangel Michael reminds me that He has my back and so do a few others. And that means everything to me. Just remember that other veterans that feel they are alone that their is something out their that does have your back. So keep your values and rememeber who the hell you are.

it has come to my attention that Justin Timberlake And jessica biel have been living off my income for probably about 30 fucking years and robbing the economny and the united states and taking all her benefits. And Tara Blaine I will find out how to file charges against you for allowing Timberlakes to do so that you can never work in the industry again and take the people in the communities money that have M&T

And SQUARE INC the fact you were taking more money than agreed to with the sign up in the beginning is fraud. And you owe me alot of money and the people who used it as well.

i dont believe in america the united states the military the veterans the cops the justice system or anyone in anything in existence. after repeatedly being raped and assault in my entire body and held hostage. i dont believe in planets stars universe friends family humanity. love hate anything or the animal kingdom. or music or arts or anything in existence.or any other thing in this world or timelines or parallel universes. man woman gay people nothing. the fact that other individuals like miguel valdez or others keep trying to take over my life form and cause harm.

i hate this planet. trying to put me in hell and make me sucidial. this species the humankind is worthless. going after one soul of two individuals have tried to be together. the world thinks they are something fucking special they have a say in our lives. because that one soul of those two individual are no longer going to hold the weight of the planet or anything on their shoulders. twin flame. one soul. but the thing is no one can have mine or his consiousness.

because she never truly loved the adkins or Jt or jay or justin. or any of them. she wanted them out her entire fucking life. and that day when he looked at me and we connected when he walked into my life in the hospital i knew it was fate and everyone tried to destroy it. but i have learned with this life that no one absolutely no one can destroy that. because he is a boomerang because of our soul.